when i get to think of it, it feels like i will be left with nothing at all. i will be left with the pour source. i will lose this richest enjoyment of my own heart. but these are lies. i just can't see the truth because i am blind rigth now. but i must admit that i had those moments when i felt like i am being stupid by wanting something other then You. it's a pitty. longing for the dirt when there is a freshness. You are rich. richer than i can imagine. You are satisfaction. Open my eyes Lord. do i need something if i won't be close to You? Do i really need it?
maybe i want it. right now i want it so much that my heart skips a beat. i can't breath normally. i'm shaking. but this is not what You made me for. Release me. Give me an answer. i can't holding on like this anymore. breaking my heart day after day. minute after a minute. longing for someone that lives constantly in my head. I need You Lord. save me from myself and my desires. i consecrate myself to You again.
Hold my heart.